Feelin' blue today.

Just feeling down in the dumps today. Momma took a long nap, and while she was asleep, Diane called and asked if I wanted to watch her ride, then when she was done, she'd come over here and help me with Deigh. Well, part of my anxiety is, I don't leave the house unless Momma knows about it. I waited and paced and waited for her to wake up before 2:00, but she didn't. I cried over the phone with Diane who got upset at Momma, but I had to explain to her that it was just my depression.

Momma got up and I told her that I had cried, and had waited for her to get up. She wasn't upset. I also cried over Shini. Then Momma told me that she called Daddy last night, and he had been drinking, and that fucking bitch of a leech leanne (Forgive me, God. I'm only human) was there cleaning the house. I guess she wants me to put her leeching ass through a wall. I will only say one thing about that... person. I wouldn't spit on her if she were thirsty. That bloody using wench.

I'm also still deeply hurt over Ohayocon, and another sucky thing about that is, it's not snowing like it was the past two years. I cried over that, too.

I don't mean to be selfish, but for once.. or maybe more than once, I'd just like things to go as I expect them to, instead of deviating from the course. I'm so tired of disappointments. So very... very tired of disappointments.