*Rubs Temples*
To clear up a few facts while I have the time to peice the words together where I don't either sound totally insane/selfish/spoiled/wtfever.
Do NOT tell me what you think I want to hear. If I want smoke blown up my ass, I'd hook one end of a hose to a car exhaust, if you get the drift.
I PUT GOD ABOVE ALL ELSE. God works -THROUGH- people as well as He works in wonderous mystery. I personally think it's wrong to sit back and say, "It's all for the best." When your friend is dying on the inside.
I care about you deeply, but with certain stand offish ways that you have, I MIRROR those. I don't mean to act like I don't care, but I MIRROR. I cannot help that. It's something that I developed in self defense after years of abuse from my peers.
I know I'm a boor. There is -so- little going on in my life, that the least amusing thing that I do is honostly something big. I apologize for that.
And I also shut down when I'm hurt. And a lot that gets shut down doesn't start back up. It's gone forever. Now, my depression is back up to full swing. I just sometimes need to hear, "You'll do good." or, "I have faith in you." Or, "I believe in you." That's what God wants for us. To be positive and supportive.
Back to my Shadows.
Do NOT tell me what you think I want to hear. If I want smoke blown up my ass, I'd hook one end of a hose to a car exhaust, if you get the drift.
I PUT GOD ABOVE ALL ELSE. God works -THROUGH- people as well as He works in wonderous mystery. I personally think it's wrong to sit back and say, "It's all for the best." When your friend is dying on the inside.
I care about you deeply, but with certain stand offish ways that you have, I MIRROR those. I don't mean to act like I don't care, but I MIRROR. I cannot help that. It's something that I developed in self defense after years of abuse from my peers.
I know I'm a boor. There is -so- little going on in my life, that the least amusing thing that I do is honostly something big. I apologize for that.
And I also shut down when I'm hurt. And a lot that gets shut down doesn't start back up. It's gone forever. Now, my depression is back up to full swing. I just sometimes need to hear, "You'll do good." or, "I have faith in you." Or, "I believe in you." That's what God wants for us. To be positive and supportive.
Back to my Shadows.
posted by Duske at 11:48 PM
1 Comments:
It's intelligence that causes my problems you know? My brain never stops working and it is always running ahead of my mouth. The smarter you are the more likely you are to be mentally unstable and stand offish and callous. Ever notice that smart people are always moody and weird? I'm sorry.
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