So many years have passed by.

 I honestly do not know where in the world to start, so I'll just... start.

I'll be fifty this year. Fifty. I can't believe when I started this blog I was barely 30. 

I bless the Lord and still love Him so much. He's kept us safe and sane as the world has fallen apart for the past eight or so years. Momma's still with me, but she's in chronic pain. She walks with a rolling walker now, you know the type that has the seat to sit and rest? We don't go anywhere much. We just try to survive. 

I drive for Uber eats, it helps pay the bills, but, good things are coming. About three years ago I had a dream. I saw two rivulets of water that were superimposed on a road that was curving slightly to the left (As if you had pulled out of my driveway, but the road was one I had dreamed of before in another message dream). My brain, as brains tend to do, formed a square car at the little rivulets because they did remind me a lot of tire tracks and I heard a voice say "Good things are coming." and I was enveloped in either the word "Peace" or "Patience." Or perhaps a bit of both. 

Good things are coming. That's kept my sanity.

Daddy died in '13. 

Autumn got married to a guy from London. She told me to my virtual face that she wasn't inviting me to the American wedding because I was introverted. Before the wedding in London, she buddied up to me, I guess to assuage her guilt because she completely blew me off for her London wedding, even though pretty much the same people who had gone to her American one was invited to her London one. Same old selfish little girl. You're only as worthy to her as the money you have in your bank account. That was in April. I wrote a post on facebook that I saw she got. TL;DR she now knows I feel exactly about her as she does me. Then I restricted her and have muted her. I don't need her in my life.

I'd talk about Tater, but like Mercy, it hurts to badly. Tater was my daughter, and I miss her. I hate cancer. That's what got Daddy. Well, the cyber knife left him with no lungs. 

Thor and Loki are answered prayers. I asked Father God if He had to take her to send me two bottle babies and He did.

I've read through my Bible at least three or four times. I'm doing the yearly New Testament reading that I really need to catch up on. I promised God I would. It's really changed my heart. 

I quit smoking.

I lost over 100 pounds and am still losing.

I have to wear reading glasses now. 

I have type 2.

I've written two novels with my best friend, Kate, and I am praying for her soul. I love that girl dearly, she is the dearest friend in the world to me. 

Diane's husband died a year before Daddy did. She couldn't afford to live here and moved to Florida.

Lady died. Deigh couldn't bear to be without her mother and she left me too.

I'm still speaking to Una and love her dearly. 

Good things are coming. 

I love you all.