WHOO! Guild!

Una and I made a guild. We rock! *WHOO* heheheh. You can barely see Kou there. :( Anyway, that's the training ground I've mentioned before. Our Guild is called Shinjitsu, and it's pretty cool. Una and I are going to share leadership of it, which -rocks-.


Haven't posted much lately. I've been bouncing in so many directions. I'm currently playing the Sims 2 again and I've fallen in love with the family I made. I'm not using the fast speeds on the family either, or free will, and that makes it both easy and hard. It takes forever to gain skills, and without free will, you forget about kids upstairs. They just stand there, humming. LMAO.

Can't wait to get back from the horse fair in march. I'll be back in Bama and I can get more excerise that I deeply need.

Mercy and Nikki (One of the Pootlins) got fixed Thursday, I believe. Both are doing -very- well. I am -very- Thankful to God that He blessed us with a vet that not only charged MUCH less than the first vet I went to to ask on a spaying price, but they gave us a 5 percent discount on the spaying, the anti-biotics went with the spaying, too. The first vet wanted to charge 95 dollars and they told me that was without anti-biotics, the good vet charged 70 dollars and when I told the woman at the good vet what the first vet said about the anti-biotics being extra, she snorted and said, "That's just a part of it." Said it like the first vet was greedy. Which they were. It was funny, when I called the good vet and asked for the price, and they told me it was 70, I was like, "WOW! That's great!" And she goes, "Ok, then it's 75... Just kidding!" The other good news is, when we pulled up that morning to drop the girls off, the woman was tossing out a brand new bike, and Daddy asked about it, and she said that someone who worked there had stored it for like, six months, and wouldn't come get it, and they kept telling them that they would throw it out, so Praise God, I got me a new bike! It needs a wheel and I need a new seat. Also, when we bring the boys in to get fixed, it will be 45 dollars a piece, plus a ten percent discount for bringing them in. Sweet!

I still haven't found my camera yet. I know it's stolen. I know who stole it. They just aren't going to come forward and say anything.

Yikes! LMAO!

LMAO I guess you have some pretty good imagination there, Una, to have dreams like those! *Laughs*




zzoaozz (10:47:47 PM): That Sess Ginta idea and the Barny Andy one gave me nightmares last night
xKougaxX (10:48:35 PM): You are kidding me.
zzoaozz (10:48:55 PM): No and sanford and son were involved too
xKougaxX (10:49:00 PM): O.O
zzoaozz (10:50:25 PM): Lamont was urging Hakkaku to let Barny and Andy hide from Aunt Bea in th poolhouse because she was having chest pains from catching Sesshoumaru and Ginta kissing in the drunk tank at the sherriff's office
zzoaozz (10:52:38 PM): I remember that barny snuck them out then he had to get andy's key back in his pants pocket without waking him up but it was hard to do because andy rolled over in bed and threw his leg over barney and he couldn't quite reach the hook. And lamont was urging Sanford to ask aunt bee out so he could score points with Hakkaku.
xKougaxX (10:53:02 PM): Can I have some of what you're smoking?

Nah, we don't need help. XD

xKougaxX (12:05:27 AM): I'm still waiting to write my Andy/Barny slash fic. Gives Aunt Bee a *Whole* new reason to yell "AnnnnnDYYYY!"
zzoaozz (12:06:01 AM): ROTFLMAO What did he really keep in that left front pocket!
xKougaxX (12:06:25 AM): Let's hope he wasn't faster than a speeding "Bullet".
zzoaozz (12:07:56 AM): Wonder if andy let him nip it in the bud
xKougaxX (12:08:29 AM): You know what you gotta do, Ang.
zzoaozz (12:10:24 AM): LMAO oh man that is so funnnnnnnnny
xKougaxX (12:10:33 AM): Tee hee!

There's no part of that sentence I didn't like.

Spaghetti again tonight. It was mighty tasty. *Pats belly*


Ooooh! One of my favorite eps of Futurama is just coming on! It's the one where Fry gets those worms from the space truck stop that improve him. Score!

I'm starting to put together a four wheeler fund. I want to get at least 2,000 bucks before I see if that's enough for a down payment. What I want is a 2006 Honda Rubicon Foreman. They are -nice- with hondamatic. Beats having to spend your time shifting gears all the time. Here is a link to the fourwheerler of my dreams. XD So far, I have gathered 87 dollars since v-day. I've got to save up at -least- 9,000.00 before I feel that I can have everything plus tax. Damn, that's a lot of money. My horse trailer is going to have to wait.

Salem got his little pootlin butt kicked last night, I assume by either smokey or mikey. He came in wet and limping. I assume it was closer to the river and he got knocked into the water. He was 100% better today, however, and I was happy. I found it endearing that when I let him in last night, he ran straight to my bed and lay there for a long while. *Chuckles*

Not a Substitute for Human Interaction.

I hate valentines day. I'm single. I'm old. I'm fat. No one wants to be with me. :'( I'm missing a friend I haven't spoken to in four years.

I'm trying to keep an upbeat attitude. I really am. I'm just lonely. I feel that there isn't a guy out there in the world who would be compatable with me.

I'm not into sex. I'm just not.
I'm distant at times.
I cherish my personal space.
I don't want a man who confuses himself as my jailer or parent. I enjoy my freedoms.
I'm close to Una. If a man can't deal with my best friend, then that's a problem.
I'm not a personal slave.
I'm not a parent.
I don't want to give birth, I'd much rather adopt.
I'm not into sex.
I want a tall cute guy with long hair.
I want someone who trusts me.
I want to be -loved-.
I want to be cherished.
I want to be needed.


There's so much I can give that some man out there has missed -way- out on, because he judged me for my body style instead of by my heart.

I'm Christian, but not perfect.
I'm loving, even though I have a low self-esteme.
Yes, I am self concious and I shame easily. I don't want someone to take advantage of that.
I'm warm.
I'm HECKA funny. I mean, I have a -great- sense of humour.
I may not be a rocket scientist, but at least I do have your basic intelligence.
I can cook.
I can clean. So long as I am not confused as a live in maid.
I dream. I imagine.
I'm nurturing.
I'm not judgemental, though, as a human, there is a degree.
I'm not perfect, but I'm loyal.
I'm not lazy, but I prefer to stay in the safty of my home, I'm overy shy and I have social phobias.


I just need someone who will love me, understand me, *PROTECT* me, accept the fact that I am joined at the hip to my best friend Una. Appriciate the fact that I am damaged and not use any of my defunctions against me to harm me or to control me.


Am I wrong?

A Wise change of mine

For a few minutes tonight, I went to undo a decision I made, until I realized that things were still the same, so, I wisely tucked back away and out of reach. You know, if you're treated like a doormat and are shown that you are only "Important" if you have something to give, then that is a one sided, *SELFISH* relationship.

I can't help but to feel the anger towards this person, when I told myself that I would put it to the past. So, I will delete some pages in my bookmarks and steer clear of destructive people. Even a passive attitude is highy destructive. I'm tired of being lied to and given excuses. I'm tired of being used. I'm tired of being hurt. I'm tired of being pushed aside. I'm tired of being made to feel inferier. I'm tired of the guilt. I'm tired of being a third wheel.

If you want a friendship, then YOU, not me, are going to have to work for it. I've tried for the past two years or more. That's a pretty damn good effort on my part. You're not as miserable and angsty as you let on. You're just a teenager. I'm just a fifth wheel.

It snowed today in Bama! And boy howdy, was it pretty! Big fluffy white flakes just a bookin' it on down! Whoo! Thank you, God! It didn't last long, but it sure was nice to see it fall. I bet the state of Alabama was holding it's breath, waiting to shut down. Of course, I told my cousin, Tanner, "Well, it's snowing. You'll be out of school for a week!" He was amused. LoL

I got a knee brace for my left knee. I guess old age has caught up with me, and my knee has decided that after all the bad things I've done to it in the past, that payback was as good a time now as ever. (Yes, I'm old. Which is why it's great to have friends my own age, because they understand me)

I think Daddy and I are going to start saving up for another FourWheeler. If we just save up our spare dollars and put them aside, we'll have a down payment for one in no time. I shall look forward to that.

I can't wait until it's time to swim again. I've pretty much got my summer planned out.

Horsey things with Diane. I promised her that we'd go to a few shows and also to the Horse Fair, Plenty of swimming with Tanner (And for me, MAN does that do my joints a world of good!) Having Una and Shane coming down in June for our Anime con/Space Muesem thingy that Shane wants to go to, Fourth of July, where I hope to buy a ton of fireworks, trying to get a hold of Stephany so we can do horsey things, maybe with Diane, I think Diane would enjoy that. Then, wait for fall to come around and watch the colors come into the trees.

This is going to be a great year, I will keep my eyes to the sky. *Nods*

Yeah, I may be fat

But at least I'm not bedridden.

I can get out of the floor on one try.

I have a bust size woman -pay- to get, granted gravity isn't my friend.

And last but not least, I can wipe my own ass.


People who have a problem with my fat can take a day off and KISS MY FAT ASS.

Thanks!

Thank you, God, for the many, countless blessings you have bestowed apon me. No words can ever express my thanks, but I do Praise You for Your love and kindness and mercy. Thank you!


Thank you, Una, for putting Kou in the Tg! I really appriciate it!


Back in Bama, and I'm happy. It's peaceful and quiet and warmer than Tn, LoL. I still can't find my camera, I've looked all over the place, but I won't give up. If I have to, I'll just save up for a new one. I really miss being able to snap pics at will. No worries, it'll all turn out for the best.

I'm still looking forward to Persacon with Una and Shane, and the space thingy Shane wants to go to to ride the rides. We'll even get to go swimming in the river, I hope! Yay!

:)

Happy Birthday, John. I hope you have many more wonderful ones to come.

Love,


Kim

Weird dreams

I had a weird dream last night. I don't really remember most of it, but some of it may come out as I type, as that's happened before. It was a busy dream and stayed on topic. I feel that I was at some kind of place, indoors, with a lot of people. I want to say that there were white crates for shipping large objects, but they weren't the focus of the dream. I want to say that all the doors seemed to be made of glass. Everything had a blue cast to it atmosphere wise, and I don't mean a blue sky, but when you got so far up into the air, it was like, grey overcast and blue, no sky really, more like being in a box. I want to say something major had happened, like a plague or something, so I had to leave the area and come back home, and home still had that in the box feeling, but sometimes that's what my dreams seem to look like. I remember being here at the house and some people came and I just lost it emotionally, began crying, and the more they bothered me, the more out of control my crying became. I remember Momma was there and she was upset at me for crying, as if I embarassed her or as if she was tired of supporting me emotionally. I just remember being either curled up and weeping, or on my hands and knees. Flashes of the dream are trying to come back, but I just can't grab them, but I can't shake the weirdness to them, either.

I woke up this morning to the sounds of my dogs outside going nuts and what sounded like a kid sreaming. I roll out of bed and see my Neighbor in my yard with a flyswatter or something and dolly out of the pen. More than likely, her boxers, when let out to go pee, had come over here and dolly pulled the dominance deal on her when she came into the yard and that caused her to make so much noise. dolly wouldn't hurt her, just put her on her back, and some dogs do screams. *Shakes head* I got upset, put dolly back in the pen and tried to call next door to see if they were ok, but apparently, they've still got phone troubles, but I'm sure if anything was wrong, they'd come over and tell us. Her, the neighbors sister was with her, or it could have been the wife of the neighbors husbands nephew that lives in the trailer next to them. No one seemed upset, so that's good, but I had an acid stomach for a while after that. My nerves aren't what they used to be.

Please Dear Heavenly Father, I humbly pray that You bless us so that we can move soon. With much Love, me. Amen.