No more.

Ever since the 7th grade, when boys I had crushes on would befriend me just so I could pass notes to girls -they- liked, or to hear them talk about the girls they liked, I have always been that fat friend who was only good to confide in. It is such a serious pain in the ass. It is as if men assume that fat women are only good to talk to and pine over their skinny little fluff balls over.

We have feelings too.

I am a human being, and just because I have these pesky little fat cells in my body, doesn't mean I'm not hot too. I have never had a man tell me that I was beautiful. I have only been faced in my life by fat fearing cowards who when they found out that I liked them, would completely avoid me. One guy, a customer at a convience store that I used to work at, stopped shopping there when I was at work when my big mouthed coworker put her nose into the mix.

Do you men honostly think that this attitude is going to last much longer? I mean, us women have to put up with your protuding guts, fat backs, hairy backs, lack of manners, lack of respect, having to deal with you treating us like baby making slaves. Get real. No, I am not some neo fem-nazi man hater. I don't care much for feminism, I think it has ruint the good life for women in this day and age.

I am sick and tired of being stepped and tripped over, so some guy can hook up with a skinny chick that will only use and abuse him.

So far, I've lost almost two pants sizes. I'm not that hot right now, because I am in the middle of weight loss, but I will say one thing. When I reach my goal, I will not give one man the time of day that shows interest in me for my body.

Catching up

Whoooo long time no post.


Grandma passed away July 3rd, around 9:10 p.m. It hasn't hit me yet that she's gone. It's like, my brain knows, but my heart doesn't, and when my heart starts getting and inkling, my brain diverts it's attention. I'll catch up to me one day. She's in Heaven and I -will- see her again one day.

I have a shop at cafepress.com! http://www.cafepress.com/Deigh Please come visit it if you're a horse lover!

Got a bowflex! It's in the guest bedroom, 99% assembled. I need to put the seat on sometime today (Saturday), and when I do, I'll be ready! I can't wait to get down to a size 5. That will be an accomplishment. For sure.

The dogs that killed my Princess almost got Heathern, Praise God that I was able to get him in time, he was sooo scared, bless his heart. Yet, I still am not allowed to get rid of them. >.> The neighbors dogs come over here all the time, charging my dogs and barking and starting fights. It's so annoying, but I think that they may have saved Heathern's life by breaking up the mauling that was happening to him. I don't mind that they come over, but only if they do so without charging and barking.

I plan to quit smoking when I lose all my weight. I'm taking Omega 3 acid, or fish oil, and I have lost about 8 to 10 pounds in six weeks. That is -not- bad. Clothes are starting to fit better and I'm feeling in general already.

We're going to get a solar charge box and run electric fencing tape inside the dog pen, on the top and the bottom, to keep those bloody dogs in. The only ones that will be loose is Zoe and Wing will still be tied up. I want to get them (he and kitty) out of the pen, but I may tie him up where Rusty is now, and let him use the building as a house. Thing is, he keeps barking and charging the horses, so he may go to the tree by the small gate. It will be -sooo- nice to be dog free outside.

Una and I are planning on going to Dragon-con next year. I hope to have lost enough weight to cosplay, and if I can maaaaaaaanage to pull it off, I want to cosplay Jean Grey. Maybe I'll get some hottie Wolvie's to hit on me. Reeow. ;)

My character, `Kouga on Conquer, is finally at level 104! Right now, he's working on his next level in the training ground. Man, just three more levels until he can get his wings! I am so excited. Hehehehe

Sorry auto (Not really sorry) but I think at 17, you're too young to stay out at all times of the morning, children your age need rules and structure, and no excuse is going to change my mind on that. When you grow up and have kids of your own, are you going to let them stay out at all hours? It's not an issue of trust, no matter how much you fail to understand that, it's an issue of rules and discipline, and the law. I just don't want to argue with you over that, it tires me out and goes in one ear and out the other.